BACK

I never appeciated how good it feels to be back!
After a month of travelling, I can honestly say that Dubai is where I'm the happiest. Ok, so maybe Metallica are never coming here, but this is still the place I know as home.
Russia was boring. The 3 weeks went on and on, and all I did was watch T.V. and play on the computer. I think I might have tried every single card arrangement of solitaire.
Austria was much better. We had a tour every day, lived in a hotel next to a delicious Chinese restaurant, a few steps away from Vienna's train stations Wastbahnhof. Nice.
We also visited Baden, where I was inspired by one of Beethoven's dwelling places.
Then we had a trip to Salsburg, where Mozart was born, and where he lived as well. Busy busy.
On the very last day we dropped in on Gratz, a very interesting city.
But still, nowhere beats Dubai. Now I just need to have a talk with Metallica's manager about their next (?) tour.

My World

I live in my own world,
where no-one can touch me,
no-one can harm me,
I live far away from reality.

I walk as if in a dream,
expecting things that cannot be.
Nothing is what it seems,
I cannot open my eyes to see.

I am protected, defended.
I'm locked inside my thoughts.
I won't let anyone in, isolated.
I don't trust anyone, I cannot.

I rely entirely on my emotions.
I feel that no-one understands me.
Constant are my never-ending devotions,
Why can't anyone just let me be?

I am left alone, forgotten.
But it doesn't matter anymore.
Everything is left, rotten.
It's never enough, why do I ask for more?

All I have to myself is this.
Listen, I say, I am talking!
Who ever said that ignorance is bliss?
But they just carry on, walking.

I want to be taken seriously,
I want everyone to understand.
I can't spend my life alone, in misery.
But all they do is misunderstand.

This pain, loneliness is forever with me.
I want my closest to feel me.
I want their help, they ignore me.
If not them, who else can there be?

Despair gives way to numbness
I can't feel anything anymore.
That's why I live in a world of dreams,
where nothing is real anymore

By Obsession Pathetique, 7th July 2005

Goals

My Goals in Life:

1. To see Metallica live in concert.

Not that it's going to fulfill, or anything. Just wishful thinking. But then again, I'm going to do my best to see them. If they don't come to Dubai, well, then I'll travel to America just to see them.

The only thing that scares me is... time. Time is running out, and Metallica aren't getting any younger. Oh, I wish they come here.

Feeling depressed :(

Loverman

L is for LOVE, baby
O is for ONLY you and that I do
V is for loving VIRTUALLY EVERYTHING that you are
E is for loving almost EVERYTHING that you do
R is for RAPE me
M is for MURDER me
A is for ANSWERING all of my prayers
N is for KNOWING your loverman's going to be the answer to all of yours

I'll say it again

L is for LOVE, baby
O is for Oh yes I do
V is for VIRTUE, so I ain't gonna hurt you
E is for EVEN if you want me to
R is for RENDER unto me, baby
M is for that which is MINE
A is for ANY old how, darling
N is for ANY old time

Loverman, Garage Inc., Metallica

Lexus

Formulae

1. Christina = Dana's psychologist
2. Christina + Dana = Late night talks about life. (We came up with a formula of our own: No honey = no money)
3. Christina + Kristoffer = Olympic skaters Chrystal and Christian (who will get their mothers genes and consequently forget their father's birthday is 13th July, not June).
4. Christina + Elephants = Rabbits
5. Christina + Basim = not something I want to think about
6. Christina + Jerome = The Thing That Should Not Be
7. Christina + Vova = World War III
8. (Christina + N.E.R.D./Breathe) + (Dana + Metallica) + (Basim + Linkin Park) = 3(Nirvana)
9. Christina + Julia Alieva = World War IV
10. Christina + Skating = Obsession